when i fall in love again,
i know that it’s not by choice,
i know its because i searched for it,
& it found me.
i know i chose to receive it,
if by chance my relationship fails,
i don’t want to be the person that hates love,
i want to be accountable for the things that i could have done better,
i wanna acknowledge all those things i could have compromised, but didn’t.
that i could have given, but didn’t.
& where i should have listened, but didn’t.
i don’t ever want to be the person that blames love for my shortcomings,
i don’t want to be the person that turns bitter just because i couldn’t love better,
i don’t want us to be the ones to give up, when it was time to put the work in…
i wanna be real.